Ripples Following Ripples ~ SIXTY
TRIPS AROUND THE SUN
DV
and Joan were shocked at my general appearance when
I came through the doors, and described me as haggard!
We were soon on the way to Malacca, where they left
me in my room above the shop and went home. Although
tired, I didn’t sleep im-mediately, as I first
had to unpack; moreover, my biological-clock was still
on Kathmandu time, 2½ hours behind Malaysian.
I soon settled into a routine, and was given a vacant
desk in DV’s office as my work-station. My first
job was to type out an account of my trip using my
diary-notes; it took two weeks, as I had over seven
months to cover, and also, I wasn’t at full-strength
yet. This was clear to everyone, and they were so
solicitous of my welfare.
My appetite soon returned and I began to regain the
weight I’d lost, as always happens; it wasn’t
something I wanted. Although I exercise in my room
as much as 3 hours a day, I don’t walk much
because of the humidity; five minutes, and I’m
wet with sweat!
Two years ago, I told DV that as we’d met on
my 30th birthday when I arrived in Malacca for the
first time, I’d like to observe my 60th with
him and his family. I don’t celebrate my birthdays
myself, but Chinese people consider the 60th auspicious,
60 being the multiple of the twelve signs of the zodiac
by the five elements ~ earth, air, fire, water and
wood ~ and regarded as the beginning of wisdom. Well,
such things are unimportant to me, and I don’t
live by them; nor do I believe that wisdom begins
at a particular age; many people grow old without
becoming any wiser than when they were born! On the
other hand, some children are quite wise from very
young. And as for me, sometimes, I think there’s
no hope, as I often say to myself, “Oh, you
stupid man!”
Anyway, he kept this in mind, and by the time I got
back from Nepal, the idea had formed in his mind of
doing it on a grander scale than with just his family,
and, knowing that I intended to re-sume work on my
memoirs with the aim of getting them printed, saw
it as an opportunity to raise funds for it. The pressure
was on, therefore, for me to get down to serious work.
But what I’d written the year before was so
voluminous that I wondered how I could get it all
ready in the space of two months. One night, just
before I fell asleep, the solution came to me: cut
it into parts and get them printed separately; as
one book, it would simply have been too thick, and
people would have been deterred by the size. This
decision galvanized me, and I settled down to work
on the first part, which I called, “So Many
Roads”, in answer to the first question of Bob
Dylan’s famous song of the ‘Sixties, “Blowin’
in the Wind”: “How many roads must
a man walk down, before you can call him a man?”
Preparing a book for printing is not a simple matter,
and involves much more than just writing it. Although
the contents are more important than the container,
you want the appearance to be as nice as possible
anyway. I spent many hours adjusting the text to get
it how I wanted it, trying not to leave the last line
of a para-graph with just one word, for example. DV’s
accountant, Kenneth (Kenni-ji) was ~ and continued
to be throughout the three books ~ most helpful, and
I exploited him for all kinds of assistance, but he
didn’t complain, and in fact, even seemed to
enjoy it. I learned several things from him in the
process, and owe him a great deal.
I’d not got very far with it before I came down
with some kind of urinary-tract infection, which meant
going to the toilet frequently, only to have a dribble
come out. This was quite disruptive, so DV took me
to see a doctor-friend ~ Goh Tiong Peng. His questions
and my answers thereto convinced him that my prostate-gland
was enlarged, a common complaint in men my age; he
said that medication might alleviate it, but ultimately,
an operation was the only way. I didn’t want
this, and tried the medication he pre-scribed, plus
Saw Palmetto tablets that other friends had
urged me to try. When this brought about no improvement,
I went to a urologist that Dr. Goh had referred me
to. Dr. Yang Jin Rong ran the standard tests on me
~ somewhat embarrassing for me, but that was his job
~ that confirmed my prostate-gland was greatly enlarged;
he also advised an operation, and explained what it
would involve. Dr. Yang kindly charged us a nominal
fee of just RM1 for his services. I considered going
for the operation, and got DV to take me to see an
insurance-agent friend of his, a Mr. Leong. He advised
me on my policy, which was about to expire, saying
that if I made my claim before the expiry-date, I
should be covered. I decided on the op, visited Dr
Yang again to arrange the date ~ August 7th, a Monday
~ and began negotiations with the insurance-company,
via email. These, needless to say, were somewhat protracted.
First, they sent me the claim-forms for both me and
the doctor to fill in, and we faxed these off. Now,
it is well-known that insurance-companies ~ though
quick to take your money ~ drag their feet over claims,
and so it was with mine. O-Day (Operation-Day) drew
nearer, and they still hadn’t come through,
so DV told me to go ahead and he would underwrite
the costs ~ a sum of over RM6000.
My book was finally ready for printing. We’d
had quotes from several printers, and decided upon
the cheapest, although it turned out to have been
false economy. She requested a CD of the book, and
we duly gave her one. A week later, she produced a
proof-copy, but I wasn’t happy with it, as the
last line on many pages had jumped to the top of the
next page, throwing the whole book out. She did a
second proof-copy, but it was no better than the first.
I’d never had such problems with previous books,
which had all been done by off-set, so I
decided to print out the manu-script myself and give
her that. This was a lengthy job that took me two
days doing little else, as the printing-machine I
was using was rather slow. The printer then assured
me that it would be done exactly as I wanted it. If
only! I was unaware that since my earlier books
had been printed, the technology had changed, and
not for the better, either. DV undertook to monitor
the printing.
Because this stay in Malacca was longer than my other
recent stays, it was suggested that I might like to
give a few talks in and around the town ~ something
I’d not done for some years, when I’d
‘quit’ in frustration ~ and I agreed;
after all, I needed to hone my skills. Several talks
were arranged and needed translation, which was not
always satisfactory, but I had to make do, and they
turned out alright even so. I have almost no control
over Chinese translation (as I do over Vietnamese
or Indonesian, for example, but there are various
ways by which I can tell ~ or feel ~ if the translation
is accurate or not). The audiences were generally
re-ceptive and kind. Sometimes, because of the distance,
I would get back at 11:30 or thereabouts, so the next
morning, didn’t get up at my usual time; my
routine was disrupted, but it was for a good cause,
so I didn’t mind.
The pre-op tests ~ x-ray, blood-test and ECG ~ were
done, and I was all set for O-Day. On the Thursday
before, I received an email from the insurance to
the effect that after due considera-tion, they felt
they were not liable to pay the costs of my opera-tion,
since I should have returned to Australia for it (I’d
already told them, several times, that I had no return
ticket to Australia, nor did I intend to return anytime
soon, but if they would like to pay the costs of a
ticket, I might consider it). I wasn’t disappointed
or surprised at their decision, as I’d been
expecting it. The next day, however, I got another
email saying that, after further con-sideration, they
had decided to pay after all. Well, to say the least,
this was welcome news; why else had I taken out travel-insurance?
I’d been instructed to fast from the night before
the operation, so I checked into the hospital with
an empty stomach, and was pleased to find that a fax
had arrived from the insurance-company undertaking
all costs. I was taken up to my private room ~ since
the insurance would be covering it, why not? ~ and
told to change into the gown ready for surgery. DV
left me, saying he would return after the operation
to see how I’d gone on. When the time came,
I was wheeled along on a gurney to the operating-theatre
and prepared for what I’d come for. The anesthetist
gave me a long shot in my spine and waited until the
lower part of my body was completely numb, and oh,
what a strange ~ almost ter-rible feeling ~ or non-feeling
~ that was! Supported by arm-rests, my arms were stretched
out beside me, in a crucifixion-posture, with electrodes
attached to monitor pulse and blood-pressure.
Without going into the intimate details of the procedure
here ~ known as TURP (I have my own interpretation
of this, but anyone can check it for themselves on
the Net), let me just say that I was able to observe
what was going on inside my body on a CCTV, and was
fascinated to see the greatly-magnified instrument
~ a tiny super-heated blade ~ ‘shaving’
pieces off the whitish prostate which was restricting
the canal from the bladder; these pieces then floated
away into the bladder to be sucked out later. As the
knife sliced through the tissue, jets of blood spurted
out, but the doctor quickly cauterized the wounds
as he worked on. I felt no pain ~ or any other sensation
~ whatsoever during the 90 minute operation. Then,
fitted with a catheter to drain the urine from my
bladder, and an intravenous drip to replace lost fluids
and flush out the detritus, I was taken to the recovery-room
until my blood-pressure had stabilized (it had fallen
considerably), then, an hour later, wheeled back to
my room.
DV and his mother had been waiting for me, and because
the operation and time in the recovery-room had taken
longer than expected, he’d wanted to go, as
he had other things to do, but his mother insisted
on staying. After assuring themselves I’d come
through alright, they went home, leaving me to further
recover. The anesthetic took some hours to wear off,
and then the pain set in. Panadol administered by
the nurses had little effect.
Because I was unable to sit up at first, an orderly
had to feed me lunch with a spoon ~ I felt like a
baby! Other kind visitors came and went, and I was
allowed to raise my bed, and later to sit up, but
not fully, in case the injection-point on my spine
burst open.
That evening, Leong, his wife, Lye Guat, and son,
Yuen Jia came to visit me, and while recounting my
ordeal, I described the loss of feeling in my legs,
and how I’d wondered, “Where are my legs?
I’ve lost my legs! Give me back my legs!”.
The boy had been listening, and after some minutes,
he slowly and quietly came to the foot of my bed and
lifted the blanket to see for him-self whether I’d
really lost my legs or not. We laughed so much!
After they’d gone, I was left alone, apart from
the nurses check-ing on me, bringing antibiotics and
changing the drip-bags. There was blood in my urine
as it drained through the tube, as was to be expected,
but it became pinker as the hours passed. The pain
had not subsided, but I tried to bear it, until, at
10 o’clock, unable to sleep because of it, I
called a nurse to ask for more pain-killers. She had
nothing other than panadol, however, and I refused
it, saying it had no effect. I didn’t sleep
at all that first night, and it was good that I had
a room to myself, where no-one could hear me moaning
and groaning.
In the morning, when the nurse came to check on me,
I told her that I needed to go to the bathroom. “Oh,
you can’t,” she said.
I replied, “But I must!” I didn’t
want to lie there smelling of b.o.
“Well, in that case, I will accompany you.”
“Oh, no, thank-you, I’ll manage”,
not sure that I would.
It required quite an effort to get up, and I was unstable
on my feet, but slowly made my way to the bathroom,
with the nurse pushing the drip-stand ahead of me.
I closed the door and di-vested myself of the gown
and the towel I’d wrapped around my waist, and
proceeded to shave and shower, understanding why she’d
not wanted me to do so; the blood in my urine became
red-der from the strain of bending over. I returned
to my bed, mission accomplished, and when the doctor
came around later, I told him of the pain and he prescribed
stronger medication which worked; he also gave me
a sleeping-tablet for the second night. More visi-tors
came during the day. I slept alright that night.
The hospital food was not bad ~ better, in fact, than
had been the food in Adelaide hospital the year before,
and all-vegetarian, of course. There were mid-morning
and mid-afternoon snacks of tea and buttered-bread,
too. More visitors came: Maggie, Hong and mother,
friends from Muar, the printer-lady, and in fact,
quite a number of well-wishers. I felt like a celebrity.
On the third morning, the catheter and drip bags were
removed, and later, I was told I could leave. I asked
if I could stay for an ex-tra day, however, as I’d
done in Adelaide the year before, and when asked why,
said it was because I liked it so much there. (Actually,
DV had suggested it, as he would be away in KL and
wouldn’t return until Thursday morning to check
me out) Permission was granted, and I relaxed with
a book I’d brought with me.
As it turned out, DV was delayed the next day, so
called to say Leong would pick me up, which he duly
did. I was ready, waiting for him. I was told to take
it easy for several weeks and not do anything strenuous
(as if I would!) Leong signed me out, and I was given
various kinds of medication.
DV had been and continued to be concerned about me,
wonder-ing if I’d be sufficiently recovered
for my birthday-bash on the 19th (we’d decided
to hold it on that date rather than the 18th, as it
was a Saturday), so things were not yet finalized.
When he saw how I was, however, he set the wheels
in motion, and so much had to be done in the remaining
days: notices printed and sent out, food ordered,
the venue to be arranged, and so on. Ronnie Lim ~
a good friend of DV who I also knew ~ suggested holding
it on the third-floor terrace of his condominium-block
on the sea-front just outside the town. I thought
this was a better idea than having it in a restaurant,
where seating-capacity would be limited. I’d
not yet seen it, but when I did, I knew it was the
best place. The lengthy terrace included a swimming-pool
with a waterfall running into it, and a lily-pond
at the other end. DV went ahead and reserved the whole
terrace for the event, although we would use only
part of it.
The final few days before the Big Day, there was a
flurry of activ-ity, and the Gohs excelled. DV came
up with the idea of a slide-show, and I had hurriedly
to select photos of places I’d visited over
my travels; Kenni-ji arranged it all on CD, replete
with music to accompany the slides. Then, Sister Maggie
came up from her desk in the shop to suggest a large
poster ~ or scroll ~ to hang in the venue; and was
so enthusiastic about it that I couldn’t refuse,
even though it meant more work for me. I chose some
photos of myself at various stages of my life, and
had Yen Ha in Adelaide make me a collage of them;
as always, she got back with it very fast ~ in fact,
she did several for me to choose from ~ and finally,
after asking her to alter some things, I was satisfied.
Maggie had the poster professionally done nearby,
and proudly came to show me. I was amazed! It measured
2 x 1 m, on pvc, and looked really good. She then
asked what topic I would talk about at the time. Well,
I rarely put a topic on my talks, but one suddenly
came to mind, and I said, “The topic will be:
‘How Hock-ky I am!’ “ (Hock-ky
is the Hokkien word for lucky, and the Gohs, like
most Chinese people in Malacca, are Hokkien speaking).
We were hoping to get “Roads” printed
before the 19th, but the way things were going, this
wasn’t at all sure. The printer gave us a sample,
and I was shocked by the number of errors. How could
it be so different than the mss I’d given her?
DV moved into dam-age-control mode and through his
diplomacy as a businessman, over several visits to
the press, was able to get most of the errors corrected;
nothing more could be done about the rest. 200 copies
were delivered on the 18th, enough to distribute the
next day; we would get the rest later.
Apart from people in Malacca, I’d invited some
from interstate ~ some of whom I’d known since
1973. Some confirmed that they would come, while others
weren’t sure they’d be able to make it,
and in fact, due to sudden illness, one family didn’t.
To cut down on the details here, the day came and
everything was prepared, with stools for seating (we’d
decided to dispense with tables). DV was hoping to
start on time, and actually, we were not far out.
The food was brought and laid out, buffet-style, and
people began to arrive, some early, some punctually,
and of course, some late. Eventually, over 120 people
turned up, most of whom I knew, many by name. I felt
both honored and humbled to think that so many should
remember me.
DV opened the show by introducing me and explaining
why we were all there, and although he’d prepared
his speech and read from his notes, his delivery was
impressive, and I was quite touched by what he said.
He spoke in English, and Harry Teoh ~ someone who
had translated for me many times over the past 30
years ~ did the same for him. This part over, it was
time to eat, and I was invited to lead the way to
the buffet-tables to help myself from the many dishes
that had been nicely prepared by caterer-friends.
Then, while everyone was eating, the slide-show began,
and ran for about 30 minutes.
It was then my turn to speak, and I began by saying
that I’d just completed sixty trips around the
sun ~ even though ~ like every-one else ~ I’d
simply sat on the Earth as it hurtled through space!
Mentioning people gathered there by name, I related
how they’d come into my life and changed it.
Although we don’t realize it, our lives are
not simply ours, but are made up of the stories of
count-less other people and things. We depend so much
upon others that not only do we need them so much,
but simply could not ex-ist without them.
Everything went well, and we parted, going our different
ways. The next day, when I awoke, it had the substance
of a dream.
Above, backing me up, as they
had done so well and for so long, are the Goh
Family. Back row, from left: Hock Leong (DV’s
brother), Ming Wei (aka ‘Tiger’,
Maggie’s second son), Yee Hong (DV’s
second sister), Ming Yao (aka ‘Peanut’,
Maggie’s eldest son), Chee Keng (his father),
Joan (DV’s wife), DV (Dharmavira Hock
Guan), Shin, (Yee Hong’s youngest daughter).
Second row, from left: Lye Guat (Leong’s
wife), Katrina (DV’s daughter), Matriarch-Diong
See, Mei (Yee Hong’s eldest daughter),
Maggie (DV’s first sister); and, flanking
me, two young bodyguards: Leong’s son,
Yuan Jia, and DV’s son, Yuan Cheng. (Unable
to attend were Yee Hong’s husband, Sah
Tee, and son, Siang). |
Many things have happened since then, to me, to
you, to every-one and everything, but I set my 60th
as the goal for my memoirs, so will draw them to a
close at that point, and leave you to go on with your
adventures while I go on with mine. Who knows what
will happen next? Should we not just go for the
going, and enjoy the trip as far as we’re
able to? Adieu.
Malacca, October 1st, 2006.
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